Infinitas

As a Puerto Rican living in the US, I no longer fit into my homeland. Every time I travel there, I'm considered un Americano. I'm always addressed in the English language. What's worse, my Puerto Rican friends who live on the Island don't seem to care about me anymore. I guess we've gone our separate ways-I've become too public with my homosexuality, while they endure best by living within the closet. On this side of the pond, in the United States, there are Puerto Ricans who have never been to Puerto Rico. They don't speak Spanish, they don't know our history or culture-yet, they declare themselves Puerto Rican. To them, I am less Puerto Rican than they because, in their eyes I didn't experience the same discrimination from the white culture while growing up as they did. So, where do I fit- what am I? I owe the answer to that question to my sister, Mayu-to whom I dedicate this book. As I cared for her and saw her cruel death arrive, unable to prevent it, I finally learned who I am. I am me, a special individual that is the sum total of all my experiences until now; no labels are needed to adequately describe me. Just like my sister-may she rest in peace-I will also turn into ashes when I die. This book tells some of my story, and because I think in both English and Spanish I decided to write it in both languages, to help those who still don't know who they are.

Born in San Juan, Puerto Rico to a middle class family. Grew up in the San Francisco/Santa María suburb of San Juan and attended Colegio San Ignacio de Loyola prep school where upon graduation escaped to The Johns Hopkins University in Baltimore, MD. Then proceeded to attend the University of Puerto Rico in San Juan where he obtained a Doctor in Medicine degree in 1980.

After an internship in New Orleans and a four-year obstetrics and Gynecology residency at Cook County Hospital in Chicago he went to work in the private practice in the Chicago suburbs until 1996.Currently shares life in Chicago with his life partner, Bill Rattan, and their dogs Mellow and Mocha. Very active in the GLBT community by having served on the board of two organizations; Equality Illinois and Orgullo en Acción. He publishes a weekly newsletter with links to articles on a wide range of topics including Finance, Politics, and GLBT news at his blog: Newsletters by Carlos T Mock. They are also published in Facebook. Dr. Mock sends them to his subscribers upon request. Let us know if you'd like to receive the email.

He contributes columns regularly to Windy City Times in Chicago, Ambiente Magazine in Miami, Camp Newspaper in Kansas City. He's had several OP-Ed published at the Chicago Tribune.

Inducted in the Chicago Gay & Lesbian Hall of Fame iOctober 18th, 2007.

(The Windy City Times 2007-09-19) The Chicago Commission on Human Relations’ Advisory Council on Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgender Issues has named the 2007 list of individuals and organizations for inclusion in the only known government-sponsored hall of fame that honors members of the LGBT communities.

Borrowing Time: A Latino Sexual Odyssey - Floricanto Press 2003. My memoir, the struggle with coming out in a Latino Culture ruled by machismo, religion, and close family ties and then confronting AIDS.

Mosaic Virus Floricanto Press, A High profile pedophilia case involving a cardinal and the Church cover-up that follows. After you've finished the book go to: mosaicvirus.blogspot.com to read the research behind the story.

Papi Chulo: A Legend, a Novel, and the Puerto Rican Identity The story of Puerto Rico through the eyes of my grandmother, mother, and aunt. How the inaction of both leading political parties is turning our countrymen into stone as we lose our identities. Nominated for a Lammie from the Lambda Literary Foundation.

Cuba Libe: "Mentirita" Cuba's history from the Afro Cuban point of view. Released by Floricanto Press on October.

Borrowing Time: A Latino Sexual Odyssey - Floricanto Press 2003. My memoir, the struggle with coming out in a Latino Culture ruled by machismo, religion, and close family ties and then confronting AIDS.

Mosaic Virus Floricanto Press, A High profile pedophilia case involving a cardinal and the Church cover-up that follows. After you've finished the book go to: mosaicvirus.blogspot.com to read the research behind the story.

Cuba Libe: "Mentirita" Cuba's history from the Afro Cuban point of view. Released by Floricanto Press on October.